Jealousy

I'm jealous. And it really sucks. I will cry everytime I think about it. What I want most I can't have and what I want second most hurts to know.

I'm trying my hardest to not get depressed, but trying is a hard process. I am spending the night alone in the dorm and playing video games.

Fuck.

Today's Thought.

When you open your heart you're bound to get hurt, but you're also bound to fall in love. Both are amazing things. Being in love is amazing, it's the best high. But, being hurt is amazing too. If you don't open your heart, you won't get hurt, but you also won't love.

It's only life after all.

So, depression rocks. That's all I have to say about that. Because talking about it only makes me cry and I am in a public computer lab until I get compy back. At that point I can then type and cry in the solace of my single.

I keep thinking of the Royal Tennenbaums where Richie just states, "I'm going to kill myself tomorrow." It's funny to me that a person could just decide their fate like that, but I suppose we do it with every decision we make.

I think I'll call Mary she always offers me the best advice. I really need a mom's advice right now because my head is not rational.

So, now that I've bored all of you with my live journal like rant I leave you with my favorite thing I've read today in the forum I belong to-
"I figured that Sweden hadn't invented meat yet, and opted to go for universal healthcare and free higher education instead."