Yes, ladies and gentleman, I your beloved Ripsy or McPP depending on who you are have joined a sorority. Meet the latest edition to Alpha Delta Pi!
I didn't think it would happen either, but oddly enough I am really excited for this.
Pressure is a weird thing. And, I hate that the things I want to say to show someone my affection for them only makes them feel bad. How can love be such a blessing and such a curse? I keep thinking that maybe radio silence is the way to go, but I can't stand that and I'm told that neither can she. What to do, what to do. Hopefully, my new sisters will provide me with a distraction.
Happiness, if we fake it long enough we become it, right? So, does that apply to everything? Maybe so... ::sigh::. Sometimes we have to do things for others. Sometimes we have to do things for ourselves. I hate being this way. Gah. I hate having my calls ignored especially when I really need someone to talk to and advise me, even if that person is upset too. I really want to talk to her, and I want it to be on my fucking terms for five minutes.
I feel like there are so many times when everything is on everyone else's terms and right now I want things to be on mine. I don't want everyone else to hold the cards. When is it my fucking turn? I really try to be understanding and patient, but this is the point in my mood when all I want is someone to call me and just wanted to ask how my day was. This isn't regarding anyone in particular, it honestly isn't. It's just a general thing. As an acquaintance of mine once said, "remember to assert your dominance."
Alas, life is not always what we want it to be all the time. I am excited for sorority life. I am excited to belong to something greater than just me. I am excited for friends. I am excited for life. I am excited in general. And yet, I'm sad. Isn't life odd?
